Welp, we are coming up on the two-month mark since I was laid off from my job. So, I thought I’d provide an update. This is going to be somewhat of a vulnerable post and I’m putting it all out there. So forgive me now :).
It’s been busy. I apply to jobs every single day. Some days I get three resume’s out, others I get 20 resumes out. They say you need to treat job hunting like a full-time job. And trust me. I do! I look on LinkedIn, Indeed, company websites directly and I’m even trying to build up my client list for my freelance business.
Yesterday I hit a roadblock. I wanted nothing to do with job hunting. Started to feel like everything I was doing was for nothing. I learned new skills and became certified in beginning google analytics. I’m applying to jobs that I want and that I know I have MOST if not all of the skills they are looking for. I am trying to avoid falling back into an entry level customer service job that I know I won’t be happy in. I want to spend 40 hours of my week someplace I enjoy. Not someplace that I dread.
Back to yesterday. Monday’s are notoriously rough days, to begin with, am I right? Well, yesterday was the first Monday since I was laid off that I was just not into it. I felt like I was in a job I hated. When you’re laid off, you are kind of in a job you hate though, if you think about it. You put yourself out there every day with no sense of accomplishment. You’re not hearing back from the companies and that feels like a rejection. So, not only were you laid off from a job, you’re not hearing from these companies so it’s a double whammy. So, yesterday I sat on my couch. Didn’t even bother booting up my laptop. I looked at Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter on my phone and watched TV all day and felt sorry for myself.
It was bound to happen honestly. Every day for two months focusing on nothing but jobs. Be it applying to, or trying to build up a business. I haven’t taken a day off from it.
Today is a little better. I did log on to my laptop. TV is still off. I’ve made a few phone calls and sent a few emails out. I haven’t gotten on to Indeed yet. But I’ll do that for a little bit this afternoon. I think I’m going to take tomorrow off. I posted my pity party in one of the Facebook groups I’m involved with and it was suggested to take “me” time. Take time off and let the universe breath and the seeds I’ve planted to grow a little. Use some of that time to clean my home, take a hike or anything else that will make me happy.
I’m thinking I also need to get out of my apt. Since I was laid off, I’ve been terrified of spending money. As I’m a single mom, the buck stops with me on income. But I think I need to spend at least one day a week at Starbucks for a few hours. I need to find groups around me to just get away from these same four walls. Staying in all the time is enough to drive anyone insane and into a funk.
With all this said, don’t let it define me. I know I’ll find something, or something will find me :).